GINGERALE & COUGH SYRUP

2011-06-01T17:30:00.000-07:00

He is like no other.

2010-05-31T02:15:00.000-07:00

starts with forever ends with broken.

2009-12-29T08:46:00.000-08:00

My bestfriend. I've known her the longest out of all my friends & am glad even though we only see each other once or twice a semester now, we can catch up on each other's lives in a minute & resume commencement of fun.

night is still young, i got older.

2009-10-31T11:26:00.001-07:00

I am coming back here to just to post my intimate emotions like before, I will just be two timing blogspot & tumblr from now on.

start now.

I haven't felt so careless in so long.

last entry.

2009-02-08T19:36:00.002-08:00

Catch me on

I feel awful for leaving you blogger for tumblr, but like how i left LJ for you, you've been replaced & left for the ultimate media savy blog.

try to understand

2009-01-09T22:56:00.000-08:00

I know most people see a side of me that is always happy or sarcastic. But I hope someone will just stop and ask how really things are going down?

more.

2009-01-09T22:50:00.000-08:00

And i hope people don't think I'm a love driven person, because all I blog about is my lovelife or the lack of one. But im not one dimensional, so there. I have other far more serious issues, and I found that most people my age or even people I know in general can't and couldn't understand. It's not complicated, its just a behemoth of a load for one person to handle. And so far I feel that I'm not handling it correctly and that one after another of these issue is just infinite.

for the first

2009-01-09T22:26:00.000-08:00

First time in my life I feel completely carefree. No guy or no one to dictate or influence me to be someone I'm not. I'm just glad after five years that one person is finally off my mind, my heart and no longer my problem. It was just really lame that i wasted so much time and made some terrible decisions, base on it. Well moving right along, since I've moved on, someone new is slowly but un-surely filling in. But alas it's just a crush & I might just be blowin it out of proportion since we hardly know it each other and he could probably do better than me and or without me. Again lesson learned, so I;m not betting all my earnings to one horse again and lose out. This time I'll sit back and unfortunately with the power of more time just simply wait.

bout to.

2009-01-06T19:09:00.000-08:00

Essplode!
I've been hella put down, frustrated, stressed, and 'deepressed.' needa change of scenery.

cute eh

2009-01-03T14:36:00.001-08:00

I just thought he was a cutie (ignore the ella). But nonetheless. I'm really stressed, my roommate is no more. I might be kicking her out February. Its all up to her. But I can't live knowing she's financially unstable. she's damaged my credit more in the last semester than the whole 3 years I've been active in terms of credit cards and banking.
I shoul've gone to Rage, It was so boring last night. Can't wait for school to start.

source: cobrasnake.

10 years

2009-01-01T15:02:00.000-08:00

branspankin'new. its been a decade breh.

can see

2008-12-27T13:04:00.000-08:00

eye check today.

holidays

2008-12-24T15:13:00.000-08:00

Happy holidays, glad to see everyone i haven't seen in almost a year or two. I'm out my bubble and just taking it all in, or just simply the food.

s'all downhill from now

2008-12-13T18:49:00.000-08:00

I don't think I ever wrote out what I'm thankful for. Reflecting on it, and how I've changed and how others have affected me, I think I'm still staring my unknown self. Christmas is coming up and I've never felt so much emotions. I miss my family more and more every year. The year 2009 is almost here which marks my 10th year here in the U.S.A. It's always like celebrating a death at, annually. A part of me just always seems to be lost, clueless, unsatisfied, unable to relate and always cut-off. A giant void is growing, not just with my family, but with everyone I know and meet. I've experience dozens of close deaths & I remember vividly how I felt, and it seems every year that feeling grows and comeback to me. and lately it feels like it has settled. I'm dire need of help.

Buknoy

2008-12-08T13:43:00.000-08:00

Rest in Peace, Mark Angelo.
May 12, 1988-December 7, 2008
Your smile lights up the room, your simplicity, honor and humility soften hearts. I miss & love you

in isolations

2008-12-03T10:57:00.000-08:00

It's been decided, I'd rather be alone right now. I shall focus and put all my attention into studying. I've waited long enough and it hasn't come/came. I figured all the time waiting can be utilized for something more productive. Good day today, Made some tinola, & had a nice prayer. Loving life and art at the moment.

too much

2008-11-21T20:34:00.000-08:00

I'm at a stage in my life now where I can see that a good college education is a must, and that thinking with my head & not my heart should be how I approach things. Gaby a friend I met in High school gave me that advise long ago, but I didn't listened, now I'm in a place where almost everything is wrong, and I've never felt more alone.

On the other hand, I am in the brink of finally letting that one person go. I've focused more since I've taken Gaby's advise and pursue what i think is right for me and rely less on my feelings. I will get hurt and so will others, but now I fully know it is alright. I'll lived & so will he.

chronic

2007-12-26T18:09:00.000-08:00

I've been for a while. Ever since I was a kid, earliest I could recall was crying over the fact I was bound to something great somewhat i know would be disappointing at the age of 4. I fed on myself too much, I've grown and matured in the worse ways. Now I must deal with the worst indefeasible stomach ache that will pervade throughout my life.

dumi

2006-06-17T21:38:00.000-07:00

Being raised in Rural area and here(Los Angeels, CA) I've seen/ lived many types of worlds. I fall in so many minority category. Its ridiculously frustrating. Okay, My family isn't that supportive of anything I am doing with my life. I know I'm doing the right thing, but it seems to be the opposite for them. I still haven't met a group or a person who seem to see the world in the same way I do. What's frustrating is knowing and having friends who are just as ignorant about almost about everything I aspire to be, and do, like my parents.
Drama is shit, it's nothing when you starving, it's nothing when you have to leave your family behind, cause they can't take care of you & someone else has to, it's nothing period, so stop fucking around, and just leave.
I know people who complain about crap, and people who complain about people complaining about crap & it's annoying. They have no idea what crap is. Crap is the worm and blood that came out of my younger siblings & cousins for eating unsanitary food, that they had to eat because they nothing else, causing them to shit crap.

Check it out

2006-04-25T22:48:00.000-07:00

amazing.

click here

laterdays.ken

Following?

2006-04-19T22:51:00.000-07:00

lets see what future holds for me. I'd rather it be with him.

Huge, Giant, Big & Hard

2006-04-16T22:06:00.000-07:00

I thought really long & hard today and I realized my mistakes
I'm a fool for losing so many people